7.11.12

Reason why i want to win

I want to win more than i breathe. i really do.
I never won anything before in my life. 
you know the feeling where nothing goes right and then suddenly a glimpse of hope came when your having this contest? I was happy to the brim yet sad because i know i may not win.
Greyson has been a inspiration to me since paparazzi . So young and so much talent. 
Going crazy in class for him, and telling everyone i like him and admiring him, rooms filled with photos of him.
the only distance i have is i can only see him in video picture and he won't even see me.
I really want to win this.
To say the truth , my life isn't going that well and that the only thing that gets me going is greyson and his songs.  It's like he knows exactly what's going on 
You know i feel like i have a connection with him and because of things in my life i couldn't meet him. 
It's hurt , yes it does. But i really do want to win this. Will you fufill my wish and be the nicest girl in the world? Your little action can make a big different in my entire life . 
Words can't say how much i love him. really. There's really so much to say but so little words to put it. 
I will be very very grateful my dear i really will. I would do anything just to win this , so please I beg you...
 :*(

6.2.11

Falling for you wasn't what i expected.

Falling for you wasn't my choice, continue liking you was mine.
But if liking you is so hard, i'm going to stop.
Deciding to isolate my feelings, instead i went to fall for you.
Bury my feelings and not getting closer to you would be a better choice.
At least in the end i wouldn't feel so pain. And i know
Everything will be much better tomorrow .